haiz.. after e fri incident... n after we resovled it.. tot we could ve moved on.. but apparently fate is trying to play mi ard.. cos i m supposed to mit jq at 950 tday for tut.. n i was late again.. i went to krys hostel to put my stuff n we wanted to leave by 940 but krys needed to go toilet we sort of took e way way out... so by e time i left e gate of KR, it was alr 945.. was late again.. reached at abt 10.. n i sm more really walk at a super fast pace after i alight lo.. n yet.. when i went in n sit down.. her first words to mi was ' so now u noe y i was so angry wif u le ma?'.. -_-" i juz kip quiet den she ask y so late n wat time i left.. so i said i left e gate at 945.. den she said tt i noe i was meeting her at 950 n i left at 945.. knowing tt i cfm ll be late.. i told her krys went toilet n we took e wrong turn.. n i tink she dun bliv n tink i m giving excuses bahz.. but i oso lazy to explain more le.. cos e more i say e more she tink i m giving excuses bahz. so i juz say sry lo.. n i even say i ll be early tml.. n she said 'action speaks louder den words lo' wah lao.. here i trying to be apologetic den she so sarcastic.. i dun bliv anyone ll wan to be purposely late to get scolding or see other's black face de lo.. but is juz tt.. hw to say.. i m sway bahz.. everytime when i mit her.. things crop up.. wanted to be early tday.. but things juz happened in e way tt i became late.. even if i wan to leave at 9am to mit her i oso dunno e way out on my own rite.. i nv been to KR hall b4 eh..
so guess wat.. i try to speak to her several times but she juz mmm her ans.. so okie lo.. den i still go pei her eat lunch.. i nv eat la.. sit dere kip quiet oni.. den later go lec she sit one seat away frm mi.. i tink is childish.. so i went out to toilet n make calls... when i came back.., she is 2 seats away le.. fine lo.. wat can i do.. after tt nv tok at all.. den i heard tt she wan change her tut.. i mean lk.. nid to go until tt extent not.. if she wan to change i oso cant say naything.. is up to her lo.. juz hope tt she ll rmb i gave up my free day to ve e same tut as her cos she is alone n dun wan to e grp work wif others...
after my lesson at 930pm.. i rcv a msg frm another fren, concerning tis incident.. so i called her n tok abt it.. den she tell mi jq's side of e story.. n i was angry lo.. cos she said tt when i went into e tut.. i pretend lk nth happen den ask her wher e tcher stops n muz wait until she ask mi den i say sry.. excuse mi. if u wan complain or wat.. pls get e facts right.. i went in, haven even take down my bag she said tt golden sentence to mi le.. den haven take out my stuff den she ask mi abt y i late all dose.. m i given a chance to explain?? n said again abt my late coming tru out e whole sem.. i tink tt as a gd fren.. u cant even understand n compromise a 5 mins leeway.. is real sad.. cos i leave hse at e smae time every monring (except on occasions tt i alr msg her informing her of my delay), e bus might not come at e same time sia.. wat if it met wif red light at every junction or got stupid ppl asking directions?? m i supposed to msg u say i ll be late for 3 mins??? i tok until i cried at e YIH bus stop lo.. i mean.. such a small matter.. y muz u blow it out of proportion.. if u cant tolerate mi for such a long time le.. den y still mit mi?? n y nv say out? dun tell mi u jokingly say mi b4.. if u tink is a serious matter dne bring it up seriously.. dun drag up all old debts suddenly n say i nv change...
shit man.. toking to my fren abt tis make mi feel v wei qu for myself.. y muz i make myself till so miserable.. even now whenever i go for lec or tut wif her ard.. i stress myself wif e notion of getting dere earlier den her.. if i m late cant u juz get inside n sit firsT?? seriously tink tt so many yrs fren den u act until lktt.. spoil tis frenship juz cos of tis stupid issue... if i alr make apologies n try to tok to u.. n u refuse to accept either.. den too bad lo.. i m not gg to beg for forgiveness or wat.. u can decide wat u wan do after u get ur emotions under control..
